I must admit I have gotten really frustrated and bewildered about a lot of the political movements going on in Lebanon. I was thinking about it all the other day and have come out with my own personal analysis and theory.

From the way I see it, the political system, the government, and the current situation will not be resolved overnight. The country spent 15 years at war and another 15 years under the control of a neighbouring dictatorship. A lot of ugliness and messiness occured during those combined 30 years. We can’t simply delete the past but it takes some time to pick up the pieces, analyse our situation, agree on our analysis, and decide how to go ahead with it.

Also, some of the political parties such as the Aounists and the LFers were officially inactive during the 15 years while we were in control of a neighboring dictatorship. Therefore, now that they are active, and no longer during a war, they have to reset up their organizations and their goals AND get supporters.  New political parties are also popping up which also need to come out and create an awareness of themselves in order to inform people that they exist and what they believe in.

I think all of the above is a sign of a healthy political system.  I am optimistic about the future of Lebanon BUT what kills me is to see the university students fighting amongst each other over these matters.  A healthy debate is acceptable but stop beating each other up!

Lebanon, my love, we are trying… please be patient.

It’s finally Wednesday!

The Sagesse are in town and I’m going to watch them play this weekend!
Also, mom is FINALLY arriving tonight from Lebanon.
The weather is nicer.
To sum things up… the weekends here!

My mood is bright and fresh today. I have no reason… I must have woke up on the right side of the bed today. The day was full of matters that I would usually get upset about… but I remained calm and “delightful”

:D

Have a good day everyone!

(oh and I know theres a lot of lebanese political issues I could have posted about this past week but you know what? I really can’t be bother with it all… I also have a bunch of movie reviews to write but will do so soon hopefully)

For those of you who question 9/11 and/or are interested in the investigations I think you might found this post interesting.

(thanks to brainhell)

You know something? I feel like I just ran across the country.  It must have been half an hour since my panic attack yet I still feel like I just stopped running! I also feel very tired.  It’s almost 2 am.  I need to sleep in order to wake up for work in the morning.  I can’t be late tomorrow!

I just had a freaking panic attack! I haven’t had a panic attack in 6 years! Why get a freaking panic attack now? While in bed?!

At first, I didn’t realize what was happening. I was watching a movie and suddenly I felt like I was suffocating so I paused the movie and played some chill out music but my heart just kept racing and I felt like it was banging against my ribs trying to get out of me! I started breathing faster but was trying to slow it down and I felt all lightheaded.  I closed my eyes and was trying to control my breathing, placing my hand against my chest as if that was going to stop my heart from pounding! This must have lasted a few minutes.  Once I had some energy to get up I went downstairs to check my blood pressure and heart rate.  My blood pressure was slightly higer than normal but nothing bad and my heart rate was also slightly higher than normal yet nothing bad either.  I sat down on the couch still trying to get my breath back and trying regain my energy yet I still felt like everything was fuzzy and slightly out of focus around me.  This feeling was all familiar to me and I was trying to remember when I did feel like this…. I then remembered… I got 3 panic attacks within  2 weeks 6 years ago.  I went to the doctor after the 3rd time since I really got freaked out.  The doctor told me that what I was suffering from were panic attacks which are caused by stress and I thought he was insane since I had just returned from Easter break and was completely relaxed… you see I was worried it was a more serious problem but he assured me it was not.  He told me I was too young to be taking medication so instead he suggested that I relax and go to the beach and try to lighten up.

I went home and researched panic attacks and found out he was right.  I did suffer from almost half of the sensations associated with panic attacks, my attacks were unprovoked and always seemed like nothing did trigger them.

I am rambling on and on trying to find a pattern in what triggers my panic attacks.  Why now?  I’ve gone through more stressful times than now during the past 6 years.

It doesn’t make sense to me.  I won’t wait for a third attack to go to a doctor this time.  If I get another attack soon I will immediately go to a doctor.

You know? I think the number of times I have gotten “ill” during this past year is a lot more  than I have during my entire life combined!

Kuwait will be hosting the 17th Asian Basketball Championship from May 31st until June 8th.

Click here for the schedule and go cheer your teams! I know I will cheer Il Hikme (sagesse).