This Blog Has Expired!

Well, I just got back from the hospital. I still am not 100% recovered but I can return to work tomorrow and drive again.

I managed to stay home for two whole weeks. It was great, and it seriously is a wonderful accomplishment but now I have to return to my normal life.

This blog has officially expired!!

Two Things

1. I just went through the latest issue of bazaar magazine. It really is starting to irritate me how most people simply bash Kuwait or the lifestyle or the places or the people...etc. If you contribute why don't you contribute on how to enjoy Kuwait more. It's depressing to read all that shit. Can you imagine if you take an issue with you to some other country and have a foreigner read it? What would they think if they read it? lol

2. I think these past few weeks has majorly affected my fitness. I start panting like crazy when I walk up a flight of stairs!

I Went Out!

Mom walked in to my room this afternoon and asked me if I would like to go somewhere tonight to drink coffee. I looked at her to check if she was bluffing or if it was for real. I couldn't figure it out so I asked her and she told me that she is serious. Like a little kid being asked if she wanted to go to Disneyland, I nodded and smiled and screamed out yes!

We went to Marina Crescent since the weather is gorgeous outside. We sat outside at Lina's Cafe. I wasn't in the mood to bump into people I know and smile fakingly to them and luckily, I didn't bump into anyone.

While sitting there I looked around at the teenagers. It pisses me off to see young kids, whose lungs haven't fully developed yet, smoking! Eh walla, 13 and 14 year old kids smoking!! It pisses me off to see those same kids wearing make up and stilleto heels and so forth. Most of the teenagers I saw were from foreign schools, it was obvious by simply looking at them. Multnational group of kids sitting together, talking in English, and dressed like pop stars or rock stars... each according to their taste of music. I used to be like that... except I didn't smoke or wear make up or high heels or talk about hookers.

Looking at those kids, I realized that I did enjoy my teenage years, I also did enjoy my university years, but I don't wish I was that young again, since I am enjoying my mid-twenties as well.

I'm not old, I'm not young, I'm 25 and I am enjoying it.

I Ain't Delusional !

I've been wanting to write this post for a while now but it's been a challenge for me. You see, people seem to refuse the idea that I am happy, as in I am truly happy. After I got so many surpised looks and statements from people when I told them I am happy, I even started doubting the fact that I was so I started questioning myself.

The way I see it is that I don't regret any decision I have ever made and I am more than satisfied with where I am at the moment. Let's analyze this a bit further:

Career: I feel that I have reached a position where only a few people my age, and with only 3 years of working experience have reached. This must prove that I am not only a passionate hard-worker, but a good one too. I also see plenty of potential of growth from where I am. Financially I don't think anyone is happy... there also is room for more, but what I make right now is enough to keep me happy. In short, I am more than happy with where I am and am even more ambitious then when I started.

Education: I don't regret that I never got my bachelors degree. You see, not having a degree made me feel that I have to work harder, even though no one has asked me for my degree yet. Well, since I did work harder and challenged myself as a fresh "graduate" I moved up the ladder at work a lot quicker than most people.

Friends: It took me a while to find friends in Kuwait. I had met a lot of people and stuff but it's only during the past 6 months that I can say that I made true friends. Friends who stick next to me during my hard times, and friends who I would stand next to during their hard times. Friends who I don't even have to complain to when I am feeling down since I cheer up by merely spending some time with them which has caused me to look forward to meeting up with them everytime.

Family: My relationship with my family has drastically improved. My parents have been next to me during my hardest times and they are the only people I allow to see me when I am at my lowest. Again, I have reached the point where I don't have to talk to them when I am feeling down, I simply have to spend time with them and I feel better.

Love life: Yes, I have plenty of ups and downs... but I am glad about the decisions I made. I thought about if me and my ex-fiance didn't break up, I would have been married by now... maybe even pregnant. I wouldn't have been happy. I wouldn't have been happy married to him, and I also wouldn't have been happy if it was the greatest guy. You see, I am so happy with my lifestyle at the moment, that I can't imagine being married to anyone at the moment.

Kuwait: I have reached the point where I can't imagine myself living elsewhere. I refuse to live elsewhere.

I am not delusionally happy, I truly am happy.

I feel that I have matured and I have calmed down. I make my decisions a lot more carefully then I used to. I take some time out to understand myself more, to understand my needs, and my wants. I have learnt to take care of myself and to be selfish a little.

I have learnt how to balance out my life between my job, my family, my friends, and myself.

Most importantly, I have learnt what it is I want from my life and I am aiming at getting those things.

I know if I was in my deathbed at this moment, I would be happy with how I lead my life so far.
I am not saying I am perfect, I am simply saying I am on the right track with my life.

I think, therefore I am happy!

(I feel this post is also a closure post for my previous blog, rampurple)

Completed Sex & The City

I just finished watching season 4 of sex and the city. I got slightly depressed from the last episode but it's nothing a cigarette won't cure. Now I have to order season 5. Now that I have watched the episodes in their proper sequence I understand Big's role a lot more... and you know what? I like him!

What I've Missed The Most!

While lying down in bed, watching the 4th season of Sex in the City, I realized what I miss the most the past few weeks is having coffee with my mother. Yes, I know this has nothing to do with what I am watching. I felt the urge to post this now because.... well.... I was going to write my Happy Ramadan post in the morning, but I just realized since Ramadan starts in an hour or so, the coffee shops and restaurants will be closed during the days, so me and mom won't be able to have our morning coffee on Fridays. I like morning coffee on Fridays, that's when Marina Mall is still quiet and not crowded. I guess we'll have to make do with coffee after fotoor. Hmmm I miss shopping as well... (that's got to do with sex in the city ;D )

Anyways all! Happy Ramadan... mubarak 3aleikom il shahr.

Enjoy!

Anonymous Bahlsen

My mom got me a bag of Bahlsen ABC biscuits. I usually love those biscuits.... today they were tasteless! Don't get me wrong though, I did finish the entire thing!

I got an anonymous call while I was in the bathroom. I hate those! Who could it have been?!

I am done with season 1 and 2 of sex in the city, and almost through with 3. I have watched most of the episodes but not in order. Now things seem to make a lot more sense to me.

The painkillers seem to have finally kicked in!

I've Hit The Bottom

I feel horrible today!! I've hit rock bottom... God decided that I've been feeling good the past few days, so he decided to add some more pain. Excuse me while I go lie down...

(I know this post is mean but seriously ppl ouch!)

Rest Assure

Ease your minds my fellow readers... i just went to abc's website to find out what happened in the first episode of season 2. It calmed me a bit. I still want to continue watching this series though. It's addictive. I can't understand why. It's not something I would usually watch... a mixture of a soap opera and nancy drew. Sigh.

Anyone have any ideas of where I can watch season 2 in Kuwait? Can i download the episodes from somewhere?

Season 2?!

It's so not funny how season 1 of Desperate Housewives ended! I need to start watching season 2 now! URGH!

Mission Almost Accomplish

I couldn't sleep last night. I was up until 6 am. I took advantage of this fact and continued watching Desperate Housewives; I finished the 4th DVD last night (or this morning). I woke up at around 11am and decided to go to the office to do some "damage control." I must admit it was fun. I miss some of our office drama, politics, and action. It's too stressful to think about at the moment but it's nice to get a glimpse of.

Anyways, when I got home I went straight back to Desperate Housewives. I finished the 5th dvd. Toomz, mar, and JC passed by. JC got to watch one of the episodes with me. My parents friends passed by and I sat with them for a while. Now it's time to start the last dvd of season 1 Desperate Housewives. I should be done with it before I sleep.

After watching 4 dvds, which is equivalent to 16 episodes, yesterday I ended up dreaming of desperate housewives lol.

Desperate In Bed

The reason I haven't blogged today is because I did not wake until around 1pm. I stayed in bed until my lunch came at 2:30pm, shortly followed by a surprise... Toomz passed by to drop some dvds. Desperate housewives season 1 and sex in the city, season 1 and 2. Therefore, I have been in bed every since watching desperate housewives. I just finished the 8th episode. I took a break from it when Stallion, obliv and friend passed by. Now I got to go continue the season....

Oh and by the way... only one week remains until I go back to work and lead a normal life again.... although I now am starting to enjoy the life of the cave.

Knowing Me Knowing You

No..... not the song!

My friends came over tonight and we played a game called Knowing Me Knowing You. It was real fun playing it and we sort of got to know each other a bit more through this game.

It was a fun night I must say... at least for me. My good friends had a choice to do something else with their Thursday night but they chose to spend time with me... realize I said chose, I did not threaten them or anything and don't believe anything anyone else would tell you.

Thanks JC, Toomz, Mar, Purg, and Obliv.

I got to go now and watch some DVDs mark lent to me... he gave me a deadline!

Online Shopping

So, I am supposed to be getting my ibook next week. Therefore, I decided to start shopping for sleeves for my ibook. I really didn't find anything that wowed me other that foofbags. There stuff is really cool. I really like the inverted urchin, but I guess I will order the purple people eater until the inverted urchin is available in mid-october.

While browsing the net ... and feeling bored ... I decided to check out Dream Kitty. Nibaq had sent me this link once. I like a few of their items but I can't imagine living in Hello Kitty land. I tried imagining Nibaq's car full of Hello Kitty accessories. Hello Kitty sunshades, hello kitty hand brakes, hello kitty rear view mirror, hello kitty phone holder, hello kitty gear, etc and then imagine his bathroom full of hello kitty mats, soap dispensers, shower curtains, trash can, etc THEN imagine his bedroom full of hello kitty stuff as well, like curtains, bed sheets, accessories. The reason I use Nibaq as an example is because he is the only person I know who likes hello kitty more than I do. I wouldn't mind owning a couple of their stuff. I really wouldn't find a hello kitty sleeve for my ibook. Could you imagine foof with a hello kitty design? That would be awesome!

Ode To My Remote Control

Last night, I was watching TV, in bed of course... I moved my covers and the receiver remote fell behind my bed. Usually, I would move my bed or crawl under my bed to reach for it. I knew I couldn't do the same this time. I couldn't call for help either because both my parents have slept already. Therefore, I switched off the television and forced myself to sleep.

I woke up an hour ago. Both parents are not home. I tell myself, it's Ok, mom will be home in a bit. 15 minutes ago, I decided enough waiting. I thought of getting the broomstick and using the stick to move my remote to the side. Next problem was where does my mom place the broom stick? I never do any house chores you see. I decided to go on a hunt for the broom stick. I walked out of my door and found the broom stick right in front of me. I guess mom was using it this morning. I grabbed the broom stick and returned to my room. I got on top of the bed and started slowly moving the remote... damn! it got stuck in an area I can't see and the broom stick can't touch! By this time I was breathing and panting heavily. That must have been the most effort I have done all week.

I called mom, she said she needed another half an hour to get home. I told her my dilemma. She ordered me to "put everything down and walk away! I repeat walk away!" Go watch tv in the living room!

Sigh.... is this what has become of my life?

10 days left

I just realized I had my car accident exactly one week ago and still have to stay home for another 10 days!!!

Crippled Active

Today I have so much energy in me it's not funny. I stayed in bed from 11 am (when I woke up) until around 4pm. I did get up for lunch though. At 4 I got this weird amount of energy. I got up and started to try to find little things I could do. Things I wouldn't do before, such as put my clothes away, do the dishes, etc. My back has been in pain though.

I had a little meeting with my colleagues at home at around 6pm. I had to settle a few things at work.

Then Mar passed by and I couldn't sit up anymore, so I ended up lying down a bit while she was here. After she left, I came up to my room and watched some TV. I relaxed a little bit. BUT I got hungry! I felt like some shawerma but my dad didn't go to Dodo to get me some... so I decided to fry some eggs. My mom came to the kitchen, and to her surprise, I had fried eggs, eaten them, and washed the dishes.

Now, I am up in my room again. I am home alone and I have convinced myself to just lie down and watch a movie. (Let's see how long that will last for!)

The strange thing is that I AM in pain but I can't sit still! It's really frustrating.

So... erm .. yeah

So... yeah... yesterday I stayed home. I stared at my ceiling, I stared at the TV, I stared out of my window.

At around 8, toomz passed by, a few other friends joined in, and late as usual JC passed by later on.

I been sleeping early. You think I was exhausted from a long day or something. By maximum, 1 am my eyes start to shut and I don't seem to wake up before 10 or 11 am.

Last night, while sleeping, my back and right leg really started to hurt me int he disturbing type of way.... not the ouch type of way.

Mad At The World

I woke up in the morning in a bad mood. I am mad at the world.
I had to go to the police station, where I left furious and in tears. I got madder.
I passed by the office to check up on things and realized things are in order and got mad that I have been being briefed like the world was coming to an end.

I am tired. I am heading to bed. Will watch TV, watch a movie, do some coloring and forget that the outside world exists.

Update on May Chidiac

Her left leg and left arm have been amputated. She also is suffering from several burns and fractures in her body.

She seems to be a fighter.... May God be with her.

Finding Neverland

I really liked watching it. When it first started I got bored, but the movie was actually good. Goosebumps, magical and all.

Catching up with movies

It's been a long time since I watched DVDs. I never have time to do so. Well, now I have plenty of time. I watched Team America this afternoon. I don't know how to feel about it. It's sort of funny but that whole patriotic, stereotypical movie sort of thing annoys me nowadays.

Fadibou, mar and a couple of other friends passed by for a while. They just left and I doubt anyone else is coming tonight. Dad's watching the reports on the latest explosion in Lebanon. It doesn't make sense to me... why her? Why May Chidiac?

Anyways, I will watch Finding Neverland now (thanks Toomz). I got my butter popcorn ready and waiting for me....

Now that he's gone

Now that Patrick has left, my mom moved back my tv, sound system, dvd player. Most of these stuff are his and I use when he is away. She also moved his bed into my room and made it look like a couch. This way my friends can be comfier and we can watch dvds in my room.

Day 2

I am a lot more tired today then I have been the past few days. I am in some pain and I will go lie down in bed for a few more hours now.

My brother, patrick, travelled today. He was here for 3 months and I had gotten adjusted to hanging out together. I will miss him when he is gone.

Friends

It is nice having my friends over on a daily basis. They keep me company and time flies by when they are around. They really are the only human contact I have lol. It's neat seeing my parents getting aquainted with my friends as well. They hadn't met most of them before.

My colleague passed by tonight as well. I didn't receive any good news about work. Now I am more worried. I should learn how to chill but I just can't!

*Sigh*

Ice Cream

I'm bored, I'm in pain, I'm tired, and I am craving ice cream.

Frustrated & Crippled

This is nerve wrecking. I am in bed and continuously on the phone with the office or with clients. I am such a control freak... I want to be at the office doing my own work. No one can do my work the way I do it.

Please keep in mind, it frustrates me to feel useless in bed. I also haven't had any nicotine or caffeine intake since Thursday morning.

My ex-fiance had the nerves to call me today. I didn't realize it was him and picked up the phone... when I knew it was him, I told him off and shut the phone.

There's nothing on TV. The neck brace and belt are suffocating me. I been coloring all day.

Day 1

Today is my first day off from work. I went to the hospital in the morning, on my way back I passed by the office for a while. I am extremely worried about the work in the office and I feel like no one else can take care of the work like I would. That simply is too much stress and pressure on me.

The accident happened on Tuesday while I was leaving the office. The ironic part is that it was the first time in weeks that I leave work on time. I was around 50 meters away from the office, where I stopped at an intersection to check if I can get way, when a speeding car crashes into me ... from the front...

When I went to the hospital later on that evening, the doctor told me all I got is whiplash but the pain was too strong for whiplash, yet he insisted. I went home, and went to work the next day with a neck brace on. I was in a lot of pain that I returned home at 1. I went to sleep and woke up at 5 still in so much pain. I returned to the hospital, there was a different doctor who requested a different xray. The L4 in my spine has a crack in it. He transferred me to Al Razi hospital... but told me I have to wait until Saturday. I got injected with a painkiller and a muscle relaxant and was given pills.

I couldn't wait until Saturday since I was in a lot of pain. So dad called someone he knows at Al Razi and we went there Wednesday at midnight. I got more xrays done and they agreed the L4 has a crack on the right side and I have major whiplash at the neck. The doctor's orders was to stay in bed for at least 3 weeks and informed me the crack needs 5 to 6 weeks to heal. The idea of staying home for 3 weeks freaked me out! I bargained down to 2 weeks lol

Thursday, I went to work since I had a major presentation. I returned home at 1 and been in intensive care by my parents since. Mar came over in the afternoon to entertain me and got me the cutest gifts! Crayola coloring book, markers, friendship bracelets, activities box, chocolate, and a pillow. I swear these stuff have been keeping company ever since. Later on that evening, nibaq, toomz, jc, and a few non-blogger friends of mine passed by to keep me company.

Yesterday, I was home all day as well. A few friends passed by in the afternoon to entertain me, then JC arrived, and later my parents friends.

I hope these 2 weeks will pass by without me getting a nervous breakdown.

Crippled Rampurple

I got into a car accident on Tuesday. As a result I got injured and am forced to stay in bed for two weeks. I decided to start this blog just for these two weeks... the blog will expire when my life returns to normality.

Day one of the blog shall be tomorrow.