I Ain't Delusional !
I've been wanting to write this post for a while now but it's been a challenge for me. You see, people seem to refuse the idea that I am happy, as in I am truly happy. After I got so many surpised looks and statements from people when I told them I am happy, I even started doubting the fact that I was so I started questioning myself.
The way I see it is that I don't regret any decision I have ever made and I am more than satisfied with where I am at the moment. Let's analyze this a bit further:
Career: I feel that I have reached a position where only a few people my age, and with only 3 years of working experience have reached. This must prove that I am not only a passionate hard-worker, but a good one too. I also see plenty of potential of growth from where I am. Financially I don't think anyone is happy... there also is room for more, but what I make right now is enough to keep me happy. In short, I am more than happy with where I am and am even more ambitious then when I started.
Education: I don't regret that I never got my bachelors degree. You see, not having a degree made me feel that I have to work harder, even though no one has asked me for my degree yet. Well, since I did work harder and challenged myself as a fresh "graduate" I moved up the ladder at work a lot quicker than most people.
Friends: It took me a while to find friends in Kuwait. I had met a lot of people and stuff but it's only during the past 6 months that I can say that I made true friends. Friends who stick next to me during my hard times, and friends who I would stand next to during their hard times. Friends who I don't even have to complain to when I am feeling down since I cheer up by merely spending some time with them which has caused me to look forward to meeting up with them everytime.
Family: My relationship with my family has drastically improved. My parents have been next to me during my hardest times and they are the only people I allow to see me when I am at my lowest. Again, I have reached the point where I don't have to talk to them when I am feeling down, I simply have to spend time with them and I feel better.
Love life: Yes, I have plenty of ups and downs... but I am glad about the decisions I made. I thought about if me and my ex-fiance didn't break up, I would have been married by now... maybe even pregnant. I wouldn't have been happy. I wouldn't have been happy married to him, and I also wouldn't have been happy if it was the greatest guy. You see, I am so happy with my lifestyle at the moment, that I can't imagine being married to anyone at the moment.
Kuwait: I have reached the point where I can't imagine myself living elsewhere. I refuse to live elsewhere.
I am not delusionally happy, I truly am happy.
I feel that I have matured and I have calmed down. I make my decisions a lot more carefully then I used to. I take some time out to understand myself more, to understand my needs, and my wants. I have learnt to take care of myself and to be selfish a little.
I have learnt how to balance out my life between my job, my family, my friends, and myself.
Most importantly, I have learnt what it is I want from my life and I am aiming at getting those things.
I know if I was in my deathbed at this moment, I would be happy with how I lead my life so far.
I am not saying I am perfect, I am simply saying I am on the right track with my life.
I think, therefore I am happy!
(I feel this post is also a closure post for my previous blog, rampurple)
The way I see it is that I don't regret any decision I have ever made and I am more than satisfied with where I am at the moment. Let's analyze this a bit further:
Career: I feel that I have reached a position where only a few people my age, and with only 3 years of working experience have reached. This must prove that I am not only a passionate hard-worker, but a good one too. I also see plenty of potential of growth from where I am. Financially I don't think anyone is happy... there also is room for more, but what I make right now is enough to keep me happy. In short, I am more than happy with where I am and am even more ambitious then when I started.
Education: I don't regret that I never got my bachelors degree. You see, not having a degree made me feel that I have to work harder, even though no one has asked me for my degree yet. Well, since I did work harder and challenged myself as a fresh "graduate" I moved up the ladder at work a lot quicker than most people.
Friends: It took me a while to find friends in Kuwait. I had met a lot of people and stuff but it's only during the past 6 months that I can say that I made true friends. Friends who stick next to me during my hard times, and friends who I would stand next to during their hard times. Friends who I don't even have to complain to when I am feeling down since I cheer up by merely spending some time with them which has caused me to look forward to meeting up with them everytime.
Family: My relationship with my family has drastically improved. My parents have been next to me during my hardest times and they are the only people I allow to see me when I am at my lowest. Again, I have reached the point where I don't have to talk to them when I am feeling down, I simply have to spend time with them and I feel better.
Love life: Yes, I have plenty of ups and downs... but I am glad about the decisions I made. I thought about if me and my ex-fiance didn't break up, I would have been married by now... maybe even pregnant. I wouldn't have been happy. I wouldn't have been happy married to him, and I also wouldn't have been happy if it was the greatest guy. You see, I am so happy with my lifestyle at the moment, that I can't imagine being married to anyone at the moment.
Kuwait: I have reached the point where I can't imagine myself living elsewhere. I refuse to live elsewhere.
I am not delusionally happy, I truly am happy.
I feel that I have matured and I have calmed down. I make my decisions a lot more carefully then I used to. I take some time out to understand myself more, to understand my needs, and my wants. I have learnt to take care of myself and to be selfish a little.
I have learnt how to balance out my life between my job, my family, my friends, and myself.
Most importantly, I have learnt what it is I want from my life and I am aiming at getting those things.
I know if I was in my deathbed at this moment, I would be happy with how I lead my life so far.
I am not saying I am perfect, I am simply saying I am on the right track with my life.
I think, therefore I am happy!
(I feel this post is also a closure post for my previous blog, rampurple)
9 Comments:
hmm, I do not understand this post.
Glad you are happy. I understand people being doubtful, even rsentful, of your happinesss.
You go girl! You do what you wanna do! I'm glad you happ! :oP
La7tha.... seems to me like I'm talking as if I was someone we know! Excatly, JC! :oP
Anyways, I'm glad you're happy and don't let anyone tell you otherwise cause it's just their way of throwing thier misery on someone else!
I'm glad you living your life full of friends, careers, family. You have alot to be thankful for...including me :P
you go girl...the hardest thing for a person to do is to aknowledge that they are totally happy and you did that :) that's phenomenal
Does this mean we might be able to see you posting in a new light?
Thank you all for ur supporting words!
Jackie... please explain
Im glad your happy. Its always healthy to count your blessing!
You Go Girl!
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Well will you return as a different writer, such as writing different posts rather than your old ones you know.. and not remain outside of the blogger world, we love reading you.
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